he's leaving soon...

can i make it?
am i strong enough to accept reality?
can i wake up one day accepting that he's already way beyond my view and touch?
can i accept that we'll be thousands of miles away?
.. that i won't be seeing him anymore?
.. that i won't be able to feel his touch?
.. that i won't be able to hear his voice? his jokes?
can i really make it?
can i live with that?

i miss surely and undeniably miss him.
i already miss him now.
how much more if we'll be thousands of miles away?
is this really our destiny?
is this our fate?
that i can't change it anymore?

sad to say, ako lang ang nalulungkot.
can't feel his sadness that we'll be parting soon..

hope for his safety there.
hope he''ll be ok there.
hope he'll be back.
hope he won't forget me.
hope he will still keep in touch.
hope he will keep in touch, not just during his first days/weeks there, but on his entire stay there.
hope for his happiness.

but i also hope for my happiness to come back.

im starting to get depress as days passed by.. really.
im starting to fake all my actions to hide my true emotions.

maybe, i need some time alone for a while.