I wish I wasn't

I'm home alone again
And youre out hangin' with your friends
So you say
Somehow i know it's not quite that way
It's getting pretty late
And you haven't checked on me all day
When i called, you didn't answer
Now im feelin' like your ignorin' me
I wish that you were home
holdin' me tight in your arms and i wish
I could go back
To the day before we met
And skip my regret

I wish i wasn't
In love with you
So you couldn't hurt me
It just ain't fair
The way you treat me
No you don't deserve me
Wasted my time
Thinkin' bout you
And you ain't never gon change
I wish i wasn't
In love with you
So i wouldn't feel this way

When you touch me my heart melts
Anything you did wrong i forgave, yeah
So you play me
And take advantage
Of the love
That i feel for you
Why you wanna hurt me so bad
I believed in you
That's why I'm so mad
Now I'm drownin' in disappointment
And its hard for me to even look at you
I wish that you were home(oh yes i do)
holdin' me tight in your arms(ooh baby)
and i wish I could go back
To the day before we met
And skip my regret

You said you cared about me
But from what i see
I ain't feelin' that
So i disagree
Gave you all my love
And understanding
And you treated me
Like your enemy
So leave me alone
dont want nothin from ya
Just go back where you came from
This house is no longer your home
You're not welcome no no no more
No (oo oo oo) more

Hear you knocking at the door again(and i wish, i wish)
I'm wonderin should i let you in(and i wish, i wish)
I open up the door and see the flowers for me
so beautiful in your hand
You start beggin' me to take you back(and i wish, i wish)
I've always been a sucka for romance(and i wish, i wish)
And before you know it I can see youre all over me
Oh no here i go again

I wish I wasnt in love with you
so you couldnt hurt me...

quote to ponder

When your feelings get strong for someone, its always wise to stop for a while and give your heart a time to breathe. A time to use your mind, to weigh the situation based on reason not on emotion. Because the saddest thing that can happen is when one falls inlove while the other wants nothing more than friendship. Love can sometimes be magic, but magic can sometimes be an illusion.

another quote to ponder on...
Who says drinking beer makes people fat? It makes them lean.. Lean against the walls, doors, trees, friends, strangers, toilet seats, lamp posts..... :P

stupid.. stupid me...

i cant stop myself from missing him so much.. i really cant hide it. im longing for him. i really cant take him out of my mind and my heart. my heart only beats for him and i really hurts. im so stupid that im still loving him even more though i know he felt nothing for me. i wanna forget all the moments with him. just the moments that we got closer and realized that im so much inlove with him. i know i should cherish those moments but the more i reminisce those moments, the more im hurting inside. if only there's a technology that could delete events or moments that you want to forget, i would be very much willing to try it just to be free from paranoia and heartaches.

.... i just want to be happy lang naman eh. that's all i want with my life. why are you depriving me to have it? mababaw lng kaligayahan ko eh. maging happy and be loved and accepted for who i am lang fulfilled na ko. mahirap ba un? i dont want any material things... i really dont them.

i still dont want to let go of this feeling.... but why not give chance to people who care about me? because my heart beats for him eh.. but he didnt feel the same naman eh.. so stupid noh?! pasampal nman! hehe..