stupid.. stupid me...

i cant stop myself from missing him so much.. i really cant hide it. im longing for him. i really cant take him out of my mind and my heart. my heart only beats for him and i really hurts. im so stupid that im still loving him even more though i know he felt nothing for me. i wanna forget all the moments with him. just the moments that we got closer and realized that im so much inlove with him. i know i should cherish those moments but the more i reminisce those moments, the more im hurting inside. if only there's a technology that could delete events or moments that you want to forget, i would be very much willing to try it just to be free from paranoia and heartaches.

.... i just want to be happy lang naman eh. that's all i want with my life. why are you depriving me to have it? mababaw lng kaligayahan ko eh. maging happy and be loved and accepted for who i am lang fulfilled na ko. mahirap ba un? i dont want any material things... i really dont them.

i still dont want to let go of this feeling.... but why not give chance to people who care about me? because my heart beats for him eh.. but he didnt feel the same naman eh.. so stupid noh?! pasampal nman! hehe..