Halo halo stories

3pm-12midnight
Hope this time will help me move on and get on with my life.
Hope this time will help me forget my feelings for him little by little.
Hope this time will help me find what I'm looking for.
Hope this time will help me find myself. (Coz I'm lost harharhar)
Hope this will help me find the happiness that I've been looking for a long time.
Hope I won't regret this big decision I'll make.. rather I already made.
Hope I can cope with this change I'm gonna deal with.
Hope I can easily adjust.
Hope for my growth.
Hope for the best of me.

Help me pray for myself. For my career. For my love life.. hehehehe! Chika lang!
This is the hardest decision I have made so far in my life.
To leave my beloved company for better opportunity..
I have to do this for myself. For my growth.
I will surely miss them all.
Poor me.. I got so emotionally attached with my friends here.

What made me really sad is when my crush officemate asked a favor from me. :P

Crush 2: Favor po.
Me : Yes
Crush 2: Pwde pa-hug sa last day mo?
Me : Awww.. Dun ako nalungkot.
Me : Sure po.

(Description of Crush 2 below) :P

Landi ba? Hehehe but.. I felt really sad after he said that.. :( I will miss him. I will be missing them all. I will miss everything. From parties, outings to lunch outs. As in everything.

Sadness is conquering my mood again. Sadness Galore. Reminiscing unforgettable moments with them. Browsing precious pictures with them. Haay.. Ill upload all of our captured moments some other time. They will surely never be forgotten. I will cherished them forever especially my close friends, and my crushes hehehe.

Crush 1:
What if I'll tell you that I'm starting to like my officemate. That officemate is not just an officemate. He got a nice smile. Nice set of teeth hehehe. Nice posture. Nice height. Nice diction. But he was the one who ruined our La Union trip before!! Aiza got it? Hahahaha! I don't know but I like him. I'm starting to like him. I wanna be close to him. But I heard, he's seeing someone else already. I saw his Flickr page. There's a girl there. I think she's the one. I'll be so mean if I tell you that she's not pretty at all. But that's the truth! Thus, she looks old. Argh! Bitterness! But that's a fact.. Promise!

Crush 2:
But there's also this someone who's been making me smile each time we talk. I've been eyeing him a long time already. He's tall. He's macho before but now, hahahaha he has full of flabs. But he's still goodlooking. He's really nice. I love talking with him. He's a joker. He's a photographer. Wehehehe! I love photographers! Hahaha! Haaay.. I will surely miss him.

Crush 3:
But wait.. there's more. I still have another crush. This one.. I've never got the chance to talk to. Sad sad.. But I still like him. He's smart. He's chubby. Hehehe! But I love it!

Crush 4:
And last but not the least... The guy at the 27th floor. Macho. Hunk. Moreno. So-so guy. Not that goodlooking but may dating...

Gosh! I got 4 crushes. But none of them likes me.. :( Anyway, ill miss them all... Ill miss making landi landi with them. I mean for those I can only talk to. So I'm making the most out of my stay here by talking with them everyday.. :D Sila lang naman mamimiss ko talaga kaya hirap ako magresign. Kaya nalulungkot ako. Kaya I'm having second thoughts.. Wow! Hahahaha Landi... But honestly, they are one of the reasons promise. Hehehehe!

--- End of Landi Mode ---

what a day?!?

im gettin' bored. i have nothing to do. damn, i hate this. oh come on... i can't even think of something to write on. my mind is empty. blah blah blah blah blah! what an unproductive day!

"Closing Cycles"

"Closing Cycles" - Paolo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end.
If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.
Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end?
Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad?
Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened.
You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.
But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us.
What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.

Let things go.
Release them.
Detach yourself from them.
Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose.

Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood.
Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the "ideal moment."
Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back.
Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles.
Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.

Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

goodbye e-wam!!!!

my thoughts before going home..

argh! my boss still hasnt finalized our talk regarding my resignation. basta, i will decide within this week.. rather tomorrow na pala. i have to. i feel she's doing some delaying tactics. but i have already made up my mind. if ill resign, my last day will be on the 20th of june. i dont care if its less than a month. i talked to her yesterday, that was may 20. sakto na yun. if they will counter offer me with what i want within this week, then ill stay. anyway, ill be using java full time and the benefits here are real good. that's the best part IF, and ONLY IF, there's a counter offer that will occur (wish wish wish!). GOODBYE E-WAM! harharhar! (im bad.. hehehe. )

but then, all i want right now is a long sleep. i haven't had a good night sleep for the past few days because of this issue. define eyebags! anyway.... think positive!!

as i've said before...

"Destiny belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams and have the courage to pursue it. Don't stop when you are tired. Stop when you are done."

ill happily embrace what destiny will give me because i believe that will be the way to achieve my dreams and aspirations in life. just think positive! :D wish me luck for whatever decision i will make. risks are parts of life. i have to accept them. i have to embrace them. bless me.. :D

dream dream dream!

been feeling not so good since friday..
my body aches.
my head aches and spinning.
wasnt able to sleep well last night.
as if im experiencing insomia.
been dealing with stressful events these past few days.
just want to take a leave tomorrow, and on wednesday, as well as on thursday.
kung pwede lang eh..
want to take a loooooooooooong rest..
but of course i wouldnt miss friday.
cant wait for that day to come! really excited ;)
this is really is it.. i swear!

on the side note...
im craving to have a vacation for at least a week.
in time... ;)
just have to make "ipon ipon" and spend less.
to do that. ill minimize shopping. have to avoid malls for a while.
dinners, movies and coffee breaks must be minimized also.
in time.. my dream of travelling out of the country will be just within the grasp of my hands harharhar!
how i wish..
i really love to visit she in hk.. hahahaha! as well as mickey mouse :P
im dreaming of going to palawan, camiguin and boracay as well.. hoping hehehe..

haaay dream dream dream!
THINK POSITIVE! i can do it! :D

beach beach bitch!

this is it. this is really is it! hahaha
finally.. we're going out of town.
we're going to the beach!
love it!
though its kinda gloomy.. carry na yan.
i can predict its gonna be sunny tomorrow until sunday.
i can feel it... yipeeee!
beach.. here we come!!
finally.. a time to unwind. a time to get away from reality even for a while.
thank God! :D

join us!

i hate tuesday...

only a day before his departure.
i think i cant..
im getting depressed.
i havent slept well.
so many thoughts on my mind..
my head is spinning.
my head is aching.
but i need to report to office.
to keep myself busy.
but i really cant concentrate.
he's always been on my mind for the last few days.
i even dreamt of him.
i dont know if im gonna enjoy my beach outing this weekend.
i hope so.
i need to keep him out of my mind.
but i really cant imagine that i wont be able to see him again.
cant imagine that he's already beyond my reach.
cant imagine that he left.
cant imagine that he left me just like that.
are we back to being strangers?
what will we be after a certain period of time?
will we still communicate?
will he still get in touch with me?
i just saw him for less than an hour last night.
that wasnt enough.
but what can i do? he planned to show up just for a while.
that was the last moment i had with him.
and it breaks my heart knowing there isnt gonna be a next one.
though im just one of his friends... he's everything to me.
i miss him already.
im gonna miss him big time.
i wont be able to text or call him whenever i want to..
i think i really cant.. i swear..
what will i do? nothing! coz this is reality.. and i cant change his destiny.
thats what he wants.
thats for his future.
it sucks that im still loving him.
it sucks that im hurting like this.
it sucks that i cant get over him.
it sucks that im always being left out by people i really care about.

i want to see him now.
but he's busy.
he already took this day off.
he's packing up.
he's arranging important things.
and there's no more time for me.
there's no more time for us to see for the last time.
time does not permit me to see him again.....
time and destiny doesnt permit us to be together.
and i hate it!!!

there's no one who could help me but myself.
i need to be strong.
or should i say, i need to pretend to be strong to cover up my torn heart.

hope tomorrow wont come.
hope it will forever be a MONDAY.
hope time will freeze.

but then again.. I've got to get a move on with my life.. though it hurts. it really hurts big time..

Just a favor: Please don't ask anything from me regarding this one. I don't want to talk about this.

mema post

inaaliw ko lang sarili ko... pagbigyan nyo muna ako..

Anyway, take a look at these interesting pictures. Look-a-like pose shots..

Original Shot

Our version :)

Who's more glamorous? hahahahahahah! =))

Meet the wife of shrek..

And the bride of barney..


Uhmmm mema post lang po... ;)

i crush him

i'm starting to like someone. *blushing*
he's a so-so guy.
but i just like talking with him.
i dont know.
basta i think i like him.
wont spill his name.
hiya pa ako eh.
crush lang naman eh. :P