The choice of a marriage partner should not be based on "I get a warm, wonderful feeling whenever we're together and I want to have that warm wonderful feeling forever, so let's go get married".
Feelings, as we have discussed, have no logic on their own. They need to be acknowledged, of course, but they need considerable assistance from your brain.
Marriage means choosing the person you will spend the rest of your life with. This, as you may have guessed, is a very long time to spend with one person. This person will live with you, eat meals with you, sleep with you, and go on vacation with you. More important yet, this person will share your children. You need to choose wisely. The decision should not be made based on feelings alone. You need to ask yourself some tough questions.
The decisions have to be made on solid considerations.
Will this person be a good partner? Is she mature enough to put her own selfish desires aside to look out for what is best for the family?
Is he prepared to be a good provider? What is his track record? Is he responsible enough to get a good job and keep it?
Will this person be a good parent? Can you stand the thought of your children turning out exactly like this person? They will, you know. Children spend a lot of time with their parents and consequently pick up many or most of their parents' character traits. You had better like your spouse's traits a lot because you will be seeing them again in your children.
If something were to happen to you, would you completely trust this person, alone, with the task of raising and forming your children? This is not a pleasant thought, but it is an important consideration. Not everyone dies at a ripe old age with great grandchildren gathered around the bed. Sometimes a parent dies and leaves young children in the care of the other parent. If you feel that you would need to be around to correct or lessen this person's influence on your children, then you are considering the wrong person.
Does this person share your faith in God? God does not give us children so that we can mold them into the coolest, most popular people in school. Our job is to get them to heaven. To do that, we need to raise them believing in God and in His Church. It is tough to do that if only one parent believes. Saying "this is right and this is wrong, and I want you to ignore Mommy until you are thirty-five" does not work. Small children ask about eight skillion questions in a single day. The answers to those questions go a long way toward forming the kind of adults they will become. Who will be answering those questions for your children?
Does this person you are marrying have sexual self-control? Single people sometimes have this idea that marriage is just some kind of lifelong sex festival and that as long as they have each other, they will never be tempted by other people. Wrong! There are many times in every marriage when one partner or the other is sexually unavailable- illness, the last months of pregnancy, travel. There are also times when spouses, just get on each others' nerves. At times like this, other people can seem very appealing.
That can be dangerous, because there are plenty of very attractive people out there who are willing to make them available to married men and women. Do you want someone who has never said "no" to sex? If he is not good at saying "no" at eighteen, it won't be different at forty. Do you want to worry about whether or not your spouse is being faithful? These are very important questions, and if you are not comfortable with all of the answers, you should definitely not marry this person.
None of this is to say that feelings play no role at all in a marriage decision. You don't have to, "Well, I suppose that you would make a good spouse and parent, so even though I don't particularly like you I guess I'll marry you'. You need to be happy and excited about the prospect of spending your life with someone. Your brain however must acknowledge that this person as a good catch.
Don't listen to your heart alone or your head alone. Wait until your heart and head agree.
Friday, June 30, 2006
Realizations in love
Anyone who has gone through the agony of losing someone she/he loves so much will still wish against all odds to have that love back again. But, sometimes a love lost is a love gone forever. No amount of hope can bring back to life a relationship that just died a natural death. Set your self free. Let your heart spread its wings and fly. Remember, it may rain for 40 days and 40 nights, but still will not rain forever. One day the pouring will stop and there will be plenty of branches where you can find rest. One of these is where you will build your nest and start over again. It's never too late. Remember, you may find love and lose it but "WHEN LOVE DIES, YOU NEVER HAVE TO DIE WITH IT".
Remember, you cannot be a redeemer all your life. The best way to weigh a relationship is out it in the test of fire. You cannot be a sooner of your mistake forever. Remember, we all fall and make wrong decisions but our blunders are meant not to bury us deep in misery but to teach us the valued lessons of life. Loving is always a learning process. With love, we learn how to care and sacrifice. We learn to share and reach out. We learn to be UNSELFISH AND GIVE MORE THAN WE CAN. And when everything doesn't end well, we learn how it feels like to fall and get hurt. But learning doesn't have to end there. After our fall, we strive to get back on our feet and move on. This is where we learn that "LIFE DOESN'T END WHERE OUR HEARTACHES BEGIN."
"THERE IS NO FUTURE IN A RELATIONSHIP OF LIES AND SELFISHNESS". It's true, there is life in love. But, there can still be life even after losing love if you leave the past behind and let your heart heal and give you the chance to find your self again.
The success of a relationship lies not only in the beauty of its beginning but in its consistency. Make a choice not on impulse but a decision based on a healthy balance of mind and heart. Let us always remember that....
"HAPPINESS IS NOT A MATTER OF DESTINY BUT A MATTER OF CHOICE".
There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find our selves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions.
The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.
"YOU DON'T HAVE TO FORGET SOMEONE YOU LOVE.WHAT YOU NEED TO LEARN IS HOW TO ACCEPT THE VERDICT OF REALITY WITHOUT BEING BITTER OR SORRY FOR YOUR SELF. YOU WOULD BE BETTER OFF GIVING THAT THE DEDICATION AND LOVE TO SOMEONE MORE DESERVING". Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. "IF YOU LOSE LOVE,THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE FAILED IN LOVE.CRY IF YOU HAVE TO,BUT MAKE SURE THAT TEARS WASH AWAY THE HURT AND THE BITTERNESS THAT THE PAST LEFT YOU WITH.LET GO OF YESTERDAY AND LOVE WILL FIND ITS WAY BACK TO YOU". And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.
A woman on the rebound could easily fall for sweeping emotions and be made to falsely believe that she finally stumbled upon the right man when what she just found is only someone to cover up for the love she lost. A man who makes a promise with words and not with actions may never live up to fulfill them.
"ITS TRUE THAT LOVE CAN WAIT FOREVER BUT IT IS CRAZY TO STUBBORNLY HOPE FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESN’T EVEN CARE OR UNDERSTAND HOW WE FEEL."
Love makes us see things through rose-colored glasses. Most of the time, we fail to recognize the danger sign that light up along our way. This feeling you have nurtured for so long isn't healthy anymore. You must realize that you have to let go now before it consumes you and your sanity. There is always a time to think and stop. A time to be sensible and not allow our hearts to rule over our heads. "YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY NOT IN THE ARMS OF A MAN WHO KEEPS YOU WAITING BUT IN THE ARMS OF SOMEONE WHO WILL TAKE YOU NOW AND LOVE YOU FOREVER." If loving a person who is attached to someone else is a crime, then maybe, many of us would have been jailed long before we realize what its consequences could have been.
Loving someone is never a sin. It is what people do out of love that sometimes makes it all wrong. The selfish desire to want that person is what makes it a sin. "DON'T THINK ONLY OF YOUR FEELINGS FOR REAL LOVE DOESN'T HAVE A PLACE FOR SELFISH PEOPLE." When there is love, there is always sacrifice.
When we love someone, we never easily give up on that person. Even if we get hurt badly we always try to find a way to ease the pain and learn to understand and forgive. Loving too much doesn't hurt. It is when we expect this love to be reciprocated that we begin to seek approval and acceptance of the things we have done and when we are taken for granted and rejected, we curse the very same love that we once freely and happily offered.
"DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME WAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO NEVER REALLY CARED ABOUT HOW YOU WOULD HAVE FELT.OPEN YOUR HEART AGAIN AND GIVE YOUR SELF THE CHANCE TO FIND THE MAN WHO WOULD MAKE LOVING WORTH THE PAIN AND THE SACRIFICE". Just like anything else, our love grows weak and dies if not taken cared of. It can keep up with pain only to a certain extent. Beyond that, it withers without any hope of recovery and soon dies. "GOD WAKES US UP IN THE MIDST OF A STORM TO TEACH US A LESSON. HE TAKES AWAY PEOPLE WE LOVE, SO WE CAN LEARN TO VALUE LOVE ITSELF. HE MAKES US CRY SO HARD SO WE CAN SEE CLEARLY WHEN WE OPEN OUR EYES. HE MAKES US BITTER SO WE CAN REALIZE THAT THERE IS NO GENUINE HAPPINESS IF WE THINK ONLY OF OUR NEEDS AND NOT OF OTHERS." Relationships built on jealousy and selfishness are doomed from the very beginning. The hardest part of losing love is letting go and moving on. Most of us cry endlessly over things that could have been but never will be.
"God allows us to experience pain to make us stronger and better persons. He will see us through the most trying and difficult times in our lives and only if we put our trust in Him can we learn to find joy in our tears and happiness in our sorrows."
In many failed relationships, separation comes as the inevitable choice but moving on always proves to be twice as difficult as letting go. Sometimes, the end of a relationship is imposed on us, but our choice to hold on is always beyond the control of circumstance. Letting go is a decision that can never be dictated on us. It is a resolution we make to ourselves. Acceptance is the key to a new beginning and Time is the healer of all wounds. Even if the storm casts its fearful shadow, there will always be light after our darkest and loneliest moments. There is always a hope for those who believe. There is always a chance for those who try. "LOSING SOMEONE WE LOVE MAY NOT BE A LOSS AT ALL BUT A BLESSING BECAUSE SOMEONE EVEN MORE DESERVING IS YET TO COME."
There is nothing wrong in expressing our feelings to someone we love, but "WE MUST ALWAYS BE SENSITIVE TO THE SIGNALS THAT TELL US WHEN TO RATIONALIZE AND BE SENSIBLE."There comes a time in our lives when we would fall for someone who wouldn't be as interested as we are because his attention is focused on someone else. There are many times when we love but don't get loved in return. "THERE ARE TIMES WHEN THE SIGN AHEAD SAYS STOP BUT WE STILL STUBBORNLY HEAD ON." We would say our love is unconditional. But if it really is, then we should never feel bad. But why do we get frustrated when love turns sour? Because we still subconsciously seek acceptance and assurance from the people we care about. "BEING IN LOVE CAN BE THE MOST WONDERFUL THING WE COULD EXPERIENCE BUT IF THE FEELING BEGINSTO CONSUME OUR WHOLE BEINGS, THEN WE HAVE TO STOP AND LET OUR MINDS AND NOT OUR HEARTS DICTATE OUR ACTIONS. ONLY WHEN WE LEARN TO ACCEPT OUR FATE AND UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF OUR FAILURES CAN WE TRULY GO ON WITH LIFE WITHOUT HAVING TO LOOK BACK AND CRY OVER THE THINGS THAT COULD HAVE BEEN BUT WILL NEVER BE....
Live well
Laugh often
Love much
Remember, you cannot be a redeemer all your life. The best way to weigh a relationship is out it in the test of fire. You cannot be a sooner of your mistake forever. Remember, we all fall and make wrong decisions but our blunders are meant not to bury us deep in misery but to teach us the valued lessons of life. Loving is always a learning process. With love, we learn how to care and sacrifice. We learn to share and reach out. We learn to be UNSELFISH AND GIVE MORE THAN WE CAN. And when everything doesn't end well, we learn how it feels like to fall and get hurt. But learning doesn't have to end there. After our fall, we strive to get back on our feet and move on. This is where we learn that "LIFE DOESN'T END WHERE OUR HEARTACHES BEGIN."
"THERE IS NO FUTURE IN A RELATIONSHIP OF LIES AND SELFISHNESS". It's true, there is life in love. But, there can still be life even after losing love if you leave the past behind and let your heart heal and give you the chance to find your self again.
The success of a relationship lies not only in the beauty of its beginning but in its consistency. Make a choice not on impulse but a decision based on a healthy balance of mind and heart. Let us always remember that....
"HAPPINESS IS NOT A MATTER OF DESTINY BUT A MATTER OF CHOICE".
There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find our selves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions.
The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.
"YOU DON'T HAVE TO FORGET SOMEONE YOU LOVE.WHAT YOU NEED TO LEARN IS HOW TO ACCEPT THE VERDICT OF REALITY WITHOUT BEING BITTER OR SORRY FOR YOUR SELF. YOU WOULD BE BETTER OFF GIVING THAT THE DEDICATION AND LOVE TO SOMEONE MORE DESERVING". Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. "IF YOU LOSE LOVE,THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE FAILED IN LOVE.CRY IF YOU HAVE TO,BUT MAKE SURE THAT TEARS WASH AWAY THE HURT AND THE BITTERNESS THAT THE PAST LEFT YOU WITH.LET GO OF YESTERDAY AND LOVE WILL FIND ITS WAY BACK TO YOU". And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.
A woman on the rebound could easily fall for sweeping emotions and be made to falsely believe that she finally stumbled upon the right man when what she just found is only someone to cover up for the love she lost. A man who makes a promise with words and not with actions may never live up to fulfill them.
"ITS TRUE THAT LOVE CAN WAIT FOREVER BUT IT IS CRAZY TO STUBBORNLY HOPE FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESN’T EVEN CARE OR UNDERSTAND HOW WE FEEL."
Love makes us see things through rose-colored glasses. Most of the time, we fail to recognize the danger sign that light up along our way. This feeling you have nurtured for so long isn't healthy anymore. You must realize that you have to let go now before it consumes you and your sanity. There is always a time to think and stop. A time to be sensible and not allow our hearts to rule over our heads. "YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY NOT IN THE ARMS OF A MAN WHO KEEPS YOU WAITING BUT IN THE ARMS OF SOMEONE WHO WILL TAKE YOU NOW AND LOVE YOU FOREVER." If loving a person who is attached to someone else is a crime, then maybe, many of us would have been jailed long before we realize what its consequences could have been.
Loving someone is never a sin. It is what people do out of love that sometimes makes it all wrong. The selfish desire to want that person is what makes it a sin. "DON'T THINK ONLY OF YOUR FEELINGS FOR REAL LOVE DOESN'T HAVE A PLACE FOR SELFISH PEOPLE." When there is love, there is always sacrifice.
When we love someone, we never easily give up on that person. Even if we get hurt badly we always try to find a way to ease the pain and learn to understand and forgive. Loving too much doesn't hurt. It is when we expect this love to be reciprocated that we begin to seek approval and acceptance of the things we have done and when we are taken for granted and rejected, we curse the very same love that we once freely and happily offered.
"DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME WAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO NEVER REALLY CARED ABOUT HOW YOU WOULD HAVE FELT.OPEN YOUR HEART AGAIN AND GIVE YOUR SELF THE CHANCE TO FIND THE MAN WHO WOULD MAKE LOVING WORTH THE PAIN AND THE SACRIFICE". Just like anything else, our love grows weak and dies if not taken cared of. It can keep up with pain only to a certain extent. Beyond that, it withers without any hope of recovery and soon dies. "GOD WAKES US UP IN THE MIDST OF A STORM TO TEACH US A LESSON. HE TAKES AWAY PEOPLE WE LOVE, SO WE CAN LEARN TO VALUE LOVE ITSELF. HE MAKES US CRY SO HARD SO WE CAN SEE CLEARLY WHEN WE OPEN OUR EYES. HE MAKES US BITTER SO WE CAN REALIZE THAT THERE IS NO GENUINE HAPPINESS IF WE THINK ONLY OF OUR NEEDS AND NOT OF OTHERS." Relationships built on jealousy and selfishness are doomed from the very beginning. The hardest part of losing love is letting go and moving on. Most of us cry endlessly over things that could have been but never will be.
"God allows us to experience pain to make us stronger and better persons. He will see us through the most trying and difficult times in our lives and only if we put our trust in Him can we learn to find joy in our tears and happiness in our sorrows."
In many failed relationships, separation comes as the inevitable choice but moving on always proves to be twice as difficult as letting go. Sometimes, the end of a relationship is imposed on us, but our choice to hold on is always beyond the control of circumstance. Letting go is a decision that can never be dictated on us. It is a resolution we make to ourselves. Acceptance is the key to a new beginning and Time is the healer of all wounds. Even if the storm casts its fearful shadow, there will always be light after our darkest and loneliest moments. There is always a hope for those who believe. There is always a chance for those who try. "LOSING SOMEONE WE LOVE MAY NOT BE A LOSS AT ALL BUT A BLESSING BECAUSE SOMEONE EVEN MORE DESERVING IS YET TO COME."
There is nothing wrong in expressing our feelings to someone we love, but "WE MUST ALWAYS BE SENSITIVE TO THE SIGNALS THAT TELL US WHEN TO RATIONALIZE AND BE SENSIBLE."There comes a time in our lives when we would fall for someone who wouldn't be as interested as we are because his attention is focused on someone else. There are many times when we love but don't get loved in return. "THERE ARE TIMES WHEN THE SIGN AHEAD SAYS STOP BUT WE STILL STUBBORNLY HEAD ON." We would say our love is unconditional. But if it really is, then we should never feel bad. But why do we get frustrated when love turns sour? Because we still subconsciously seek acceptance and assurance from the people we care about. "BEING IN LOVE CAN BE THE MOST WONDERFUL THING WE COULD EXPERIENCE BUT IF THE FEELING BEGINSTO CONSUME OUR WHOLE BEINGS, THEN WE HAVE TO STOP AND LET OUR MINDS AND NOT OUR HEARTS DICTATE OUR ACTIONS. ONLY WHEN WE LEARN TO ACCEPT OUR FATE AND UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF OUR FAILURES CAN WE TRULY GO ON WITH LIFE WITHOUT HAVING TO LOOK BACK AND CRY OVER THE THINGS THAT COULD HAVE BEEN BUT WILL NEVER BE....
Live well
Laugh often
Love much
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Homily of Love
When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn’t really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you’re not part of it. Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn’t love you back, don’t be afraid to love someone else again, for you’ll never know unless you risk for love.
Love strives in hurting. If you don’t get hurt, you don’t learn how to love. Love doesn’t hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow. Don’t find love, let love find you. That’s why it’s called falling in love because you don’t force yourself to fall. You just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.
Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing.
The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don’t ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time.
To love is to risk rejections, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in like is risk nothing! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self, to love is to risk not to be loved in return.
How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain.
Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end.
Loving people means giving them the freedom who they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitful years, you should give thanks, for you know, that there were the things that helped you grow. Loving someone means giving the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you.
Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you’ll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you’re not ready to cry, if you’re not ready to take the risk, if you’re not ready to feel the pain, then you’re not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love coz every time we do, we get hurt, then I figured that’s why its called falling in love.
When you decide to love, allow it to grow. When you promise to love, refuse to let it die.
Love strives in hurting. If you don’t get hurt, you don’t learn how to love. Love doesn’t hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow. Don’t find love, let love find you. That’s why it’s called falling in love because you don’t force yourself to fall. You just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.
Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing.
The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don’t ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time.
To love is to risk rejections, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in like is risk nothing! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self, to love is to risk not to be loved in return.
How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain.
Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end.
Loving people means giving them the freedom who they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitful years, you should give thanks, for you know, that there were the things that helped you grow. Loving someone means giving the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you.
Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you’ll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you’re not ready to cry, if you’re not ready to take the risk, if you’re not ready to feel the pain, then you’re not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love coz every time we do, we get hurt, then I figured that’s why its called falling in love.
When you decide to love, allow it to grow. When you promise to love, refuse to let it die.
Monday, June 26, 2006
I've never thought....
I’ve only known him for just a short time
But it’s as if I’ve already met him for a very long time
Days passed, I’m falling more deeply in love with him
Can’t blame myself, I can’t stopped it
Can’t tell him yet for I feel it’s not yet the time
Can’t show him yet for I’m afraid of something I can’t define what it is
Can’t explain the happiness I’m feeling right now
I’ve never been this inspired before
Always looking forward to another day of seeing him,
Of getting to be with him,
Of getting to look in his eyes,
Of getting to see his smile and hear his laughs,
Wishing that time will stopped forever.
So that we will never part from each other.
I have never thought that I would fall in love again
After a tragic, yes its tragic, breakup.
It’s as if my ex literally broke my heart.
That I begun having traumas and not trusting any guy anymore.
But then he came.
As if he heard my prayers.
As if God sent him to me.
He came at the right time when I mostly needed someone.
I’ve never thought that I had recovered from my past this fast.
Hatreds of the past disappeared with his help.
He cleansed my heart from negativities, disappointments, and hurt.
He brought back and arranged the pieces from my puzzle.
He brought me back to HIM.
He brightened up my life. He gave me a brand new light.
Not just for myself but also for the people who cares about me.
He's my friend, my adviser, my companion, my clown, my inspiration, my dear, my angel, my life... my love.
He’s the sweetest guy I’ve ever met.
I’ve never been treated with so much respect like this before.
Now, I really feel I have a sense in this world.
That life is worth living for. That at least I’m important.
That I have my family and friends who love and care for me so much.
He brought back my confidence that was long lost and gone.
I feel so secured when I’m with him.
I feel that he will protect me from everything.
Damn! He doesn’t know how much I want to hug him.
To let him feel how much I appreciate everything.
How much I care for him... and how much I love him.
Wish I could feel his touch.
Days are passing and I can’t help myself from not telling him the truth.
I’m asking God to show me a sign that it is time.
The time to let this love bursts from my heart.
I’ll wait and I’ll never be tired of waiting until time has come for both of us.
Let God lead us the fate for both of us.
Come what may.
Come what may.
I love you so much .
I’m so deeply in love with you.
And I’m taking all the risks.
Though that risk would include being hurt and heart broken again.
Though that risk would include knowing that he can’t love me back..
And though that risk would include he already love someone else.
That’s how true my love is for you.
Haaaayy! All I can say is….
I’m back. I’m better. I’m at my best.
It’s really a very good feeling to be in love.
Not just with him, but also to all people who's always here by my side.
God, family, friends, loved ones. :)
But it’s as if I’ve already met him for a very long time
Days passed, I’m falling more deeply in love with him
Can’t blame myself, I can’t stopped it
Can’t tell him yet for I feel it’s not yet the time
Can’t show him yet for I’m afraid of something I can’t define what it is
Can’t explain the happiness I’m feeling right now
I’ve never been this inspired before
Always looking forward to another day of seeing him,
Of getting to be with him,
Of getting to look in his eyes,
Of getting to see his smile and hear his laughs,
Wishing that time will stopped forever.
So that we will never part from each other.
I have never thought that I would fall in love again
After a tragic, yes its tragic, breakup.
It’s as if my ex literally broke my heart.
That I begun having traumas and not trusting any guy anymore.
But then he came.
As if he heard my prayers.
As if God sent him to me.
He came at the right time when I mostly needed someone.
I’ve never thought that I had recovered from my past this fast.
Hatreds of the past disappeared with his help.
He cleansed my heart from negativities, disappointments, and hurt.
He brought back and arranged the pieces from my puzzle.
He brought me back to HIM.
He brightened up my life. He gave me a brand new light.
Not just for myself but also for the people who cares about me.
He's my friend, my adviser, my companion, my clown, my inspiration, my dear, my angel, my life... my love.
He’s the sweetest guy I’ve ever met.
I’ve never been treated with so much respect like this before.
Now, I really feel I have a sense in this world.
That life is worth living for. That at least I’m important.
That I have my family and friends who love and care for me so much.
He brought back my confidence that was long lost and gone.
I feel so secured when I’m with him.
I feel that he will protect me from everything.
Damn! He doesn’t know how much I want to hug him.
To let him feel how much I appreciate everything.
How much I care for him... and how much I love him.
Wish I could feel his touch.
Days are passing and I can’t help myself from not telling him the truth.
I’m asking God to show me a sign that it is time.
The time to let this love bursts from my heart.
I’ll wait and I’ll never be tired of waiting until time has come for both of us.
Let God lead us the fate for both of us.
Come what may.
Come what may.
I love you so much .
I’m so deeply in love with you.
And I’m taking all the risks.
Though that risk would include being hurt and heart broken again.
Though that risk would include knowing that he can’t love me back..
And though that risk would include he already love someone else.
That’s how true my love is for you.
Haaaayy! All I can say is….
I’m back. I’m better. I’m at my best.
It’s really a very good feeling to be in love.
Not just with him, but also to all people who's always here by my side.
God, family, friends, loved ones. :)
Friday, June 23, 2006
My Birthday
June 20 - 2006 - My most unforgettable and happiest birthday ever.. Why? Because all of my close friends and special someone were present, except for she for obvious reason. Kristian was the first one who greeted me. He called on my cellfone at 12am. Unfortunately because of so much tiredness from office work, I was already fast asleep by that time and wasn't able to answer his fone call. So sorry kristian. In my heart nman, you're the first one who greeted me. :) My morning turned out well. So many greetings from people that ive never expected to greet me. Then by lunch time, Kristian accompanied me to attend mass in Greenbelt chapel. 12:15pm is the time of the mass but we are a bit late because of him.. hehehe. Im glad he's the one im with when I had the mass. Lalng. It’s a good feeling to attend mass with someone you care about and love. Its as if youre both facing with God. Then afterwards, we took our lunch in Tokyo Tokyo Greenbelt 1. Hehehe i was late in the office after lunch. Its okay because its my day naman. Pagbigyan! By 5pm or 530pm, one of my officemates asked me to go to the pantry. Hehehe i didnt know they will treat me with cake and ice cream. Touched ako! I know now that at least im important and special to them. My bosses and officemates were there. Lalng. Its a nice feeling din pla to celebrate with your officemates especially if youre close to them. Then at exactly 6pm, i took my off from office. My most awaited time has come. So excited who will come. Gaze, Mich and I met and went to Greenbelt to look for restaurant to eat. Since I was already tired from work, we didnt roam around Greenbelt na. I suggested Big Buddha. They agreed immediately. Hehehe. From there, we waited from others to arrive. First to arrive, Arman. Naks! Punctual. Then next are Benedict and Philip. Ive never thought Benedict will really come. I didnt expect na eh coz Mich saw him with his gf going to Landmark so i thought he decided na not to come since his gf is not invited. Hehehe but thanks so much benedict for coming. I appreciated that you came even if we havent really talked to each other after the incident (...alm mo na un..) Im glad you're already talking to me and not a snob anymore. Even though, you're not the same just like before. Tahimik mo na ngyon. And so secretive even with where you are working. I really cant understand why you dont want to share it. Lalng. Nwei, its ok. at least dba? Then after that, Aileen came. Followed by my Kristian.. Hehe omit "my" word. Feel ko lng. Im glad he really came though he doesnt know my friends. Im glad because he was there to celebrate with me. I really appreciated it. So much. Haaayyy.... My feelings for him are getting deeper. And I cant stop it. Each day Im with him, its getting really deeper. Im falling for him more and more. And i cant deny it to myself. But i just need to hide it. He's doing thing unintentionally that makes me also fall for him unintentionally. There are so many things that we both like doing, eating and etc. Basta dmeng bagay na parehas kme. Funny thing, we wore the same shade of clothes on my birthday. He's wearing baby pink polo. Im wearing pink blazer. Its nice noh! D kme nagusap nyan ah. But alm nyo ba, most of the time magkaparehas kme ng color ng suot. Lalng. Sarap lng tignan. Parehas kme ng iniicp? or just a coincidence? I dont know. Then after several minutes, Martin and RC arrived. And the grand entrance......... LESTER... Waaaaah! Super late. But its ok.. At least he came to greet me. His presence is enough na khit d na cya kumain. Naks! Well, most of the time we stayed there, we just took pictures. from one place to another. Grabe, tagal tagal din kme d nagkikita ng ganon eh. Bonding! Nice... I really missed them all. My college friends. Wish we could do that again. Nwei noisiest of all - - Gaze... Always stading - - Gaze. Grabe! The night is getting late na so we decided to go home coz its tuesday! And we still have work the other day. Hay 1 day is not enough to celebrate my day tlga. :( But everything that happened that day was all worth it and worth remembering. That was really the most unforgettable birthday ive never had. I swear! Coz only that day that i felt im important to some people ive thought they will be. Presence lng nila, masaya na ko. Kaya i will always treasure that day. Especially because my close friends are there and my most special someone now. Thanks so much. I have so many pictures. Hehe. Kristian and I separated ways in MRT. I went home with Mich, Martin and Benedict. Funny thing, we used to go home together before. We four. As if its all coming back, but its not. Just that day. Kristian texted me saying sorry because he dont have any gift for me. Honestly, its not the gift that matters to me, its his presence. I arrived at home. First thing, and this is true, that i saw when i opened our door were balloons. Surprised promise! Speechless. Then my mom told me that someone came in the afternoon and gave that stuff. Its Kristian daw. There's also a cake. Speechless again. I read the small note. Its really from Kristian! Sweet! Kilig super promise. But i cant show my emotions and reactions to my mom so I immediately took the balloons and headed to my room. I called him immediately in his cellfone. I said thank you. I cant really remember how many times ive said thank you and i cant also remember if my voice during that time was loud enough for my mom and brother to hear everything that im saying. I dont care. Hehehe. Im so happy tlga. I also want to say i really love him so much but i cant. i cant do it. i dont have enough guts and courage to say it out loud. haay wish i could. That made my day more memorable and exciting! No person ever did that to me.... I mean to go to our house and give that kind of stuff to my mom and say its for me and tell him his name. So sincere promise. But mdj nahiya rin me kc liit ng bhay nman. But i think it doesnt matter to him coz he still treats me the same way he's treating me before. As my day ends, i slept with a smile. smile because im so thankful that God gave me my friends and Kristian. Seriously, mahal na mhal ko sila. And i care for them so much. Im really thankful to God for everything. I really blessed tlga. To kristian, thanks for everything. I really made my birthday real special and unforgettable. You made a great impact on my birthday. You just dont know how much you mean to me now. Hope you know it. Hope you can feel it. And hope i can say it to you. Cgro, without you, my day wont be that extra special. I can feel your sincerity because you came to attend my birthday dinner knowing that you didnt know anybody and knowing that they are all my friends. You even have the guts to talked with them. Saya saya lng. Kc kinakausap ka din nila like Mich, Aileen and Gaze. Im falling for you na tlga...more and more... This is not just infatuation but already love. Just want to ask my friends.. What do you think of him? Based on what you saw and how he treated you? Is he really sincere or what? What do you think? Or anything you want to say about him… Lalng just want to know your opinions.
To my friends... Aileen, Mich, Gaze, Arman, Benedict (na pumunta parin kht d ksma gf and we had misunderstandings in the past...), Lester (na pumunta parin kht dme gngwa office...), Philip (na sa south pa nagwwork...), RC, Martin (na kht may nangyreng d maganda sa ating dlwa...)..... Thank you so much! Thanks for coming.. I really appreciated it. Special pla ako sa inyo.. Hehehe. Touched ako! Tig- iisang MWAH! sa inyong lhat... :P Hope we can do that again... More bonding... More chikka... More of everything we used to do before in college.. Hay i missed you all.. I missed college... I missed everything we used to do all.. Puerto Galera tyong lhat pagdating ni she.... Sana matuloy.. Nwei, thanks uli and sa uulitin... Happy birthday to me....
Monday, June 05, 2006
morning..
yesterday, i almost gave in...muntik ko ng masabi sa knya ung totoong nararamdaman ko...thanks lng tlga kc naunahan ako ng hiya ko..langya tlga..pero i can say to him na na i love him...coz i think he thinks that i only love him as a friend...:( but the truth, i love him more than what he's thinking...more than the whole world could ever know.. i love him with all my heart. and given the chance for us to be together, i dont care if we didnt end up forever coz what's important to me is the present coz the present will be our guide for our future..pero im not assuming ah.. he told me na ako ung reason nya why he's so happy right now... masaya daw cya pagkausap at ktxt ako pero he's happier daw if nakita na nya ako at nkasama... he doesnt want daw to lose me. and if i went away daw from him, he will go and searh for me... and he wants to know me more pa...how sweet! so many sweet words he told me that made me fall for him even deeper.. and i can feel na sincere nman cya.. mlman mo nman dba? im sure this is not just an infatuation or an escape from my past for im sure in my heart that this is for real. This is real love. sasabog na puso ko kakatago eh...promise! punong puno na eh. and i want to tell him na... buti nlng may hiya pa ako at un ang pumipigil sken ngyon.. pero promise im super close to giving in... if you're going to ask me why i love him? i really dont knw tlga..i just felt it.. d ko expect na mangyre toh eh..it just happened.. and it happened real fast.. never felt falling this hard so fast eh... ilang weeks palng kme nagkikita nun eh...promise mern na agd... i mean, ramdam mo nman eh... tibok ng puso mo ang bilis...wla nman dhilan bkt... and i dont care if this feeling ends to nothing...
pag mahal mo cya..
sabihin mo..
kht alam mong wlang kapalit un.
ang mahalaga, nlaman nya.
at kung magalit cya...
sabihin mo:
Ang sabi ko mahal kita, hindi ko cnbeng mahalin mo rin ako...
pancin ko, ive been telling same stories over and over again..nwei, i dont care :P 4 days na kme d nagkikita...and i miss him so damn much..i just realized ung song na Ive fallen For You...i know now para knino tlga un... the msg surely is for kbramos tlga...
what is this im feeling?
i just cant explain... (i really cant explain honestly..)
when you're near...
im just not the same..
try to hide it.. (yes im trying!)
try not to show it.. (this is really hard...)
its crazy... (i agree...)
how could it be??
ive fallen for you...
finally my heart gave in... (thank God this is true!)
and ive fallen in love...
ive finally know how it feels..
so this is love..
when you said hello..
i look in your eyes..
suddenly, i felt good inside... (its not only good, its better, its best..hehe)
is this really happenin?
or am i just dreaming? (but this is real not a dream!)
i guess its true..
i cant believe.. (unbelievable tlga!)
that ive fallen for you..
finally my heart gave in..
and ive fallen in love..
ive finally know how it feels..
so this is love..
doesnt matter where i am..
thoughts of you still linger in my mind. (always....)
no matter what time of day..
ive really really fallen for you...
now ive fallen for you..
finally my heart gave in..
and ive fallen in love..
ive finally know how it feels..
so this is LOVE...
thank you Lord for giving me such a blessing.. i really can feel na youre always there for me.. and sobrang feel na feel ko na youre always answering my prayers..answering in a sense na whats best for me.. THANK YOU LORD! thank you po for everything.. I love you so much Lord..
after lunch...
out of my league...whats in this song that everytime i hear it i always feel something...its not because of who dedicates this song to me..its because of the beat...the rhythm of the song.. the message...coz i can say that the song is real beautiful tlga..it inspires me especially now that im in love.. doesnt matter to me that this is hans' song for me before...what matters is that everytime i hear this song my heart beats faster and it tells me that im so much in love right now..with whom? with kbramos....the start of the song kc is really beautiful tlga..cute ng pagkakatugtog eh..promise.
a sign that things didnt work out - il never ever talked about him in this blog... :(
yesterday, i almost gave in...muntik ko ng masabi sa knya ung totoong nararamdaman ko...thanks lng tlga kc naunahan ako ng hiya ko..langya tlga..pero i can say to him na na i love him...coz i think he thinks that i only love him as a friend...:( but the truth, i love him more than what he's thinking...more than the whole world could ever know.. i love him with all my heart. and given the chance for us to be together, i dont care if we didnt end up forever coz what's important to me is the present coz the present will be our guide for our future..pero im not assuming ah.. he told me na ako ung reason nya why he's so happy right now... masaya daw cya pagkausap at ktxt ako pero he's happier daw if nakita na nya ako at nkasama... he doesnt want daw to lose me. and if i went away daw from him, he will go and searh for me... and he wants to know me more pa...how sweet! so many sweet words he told me that made me fall for him even deeper.. and i can feel na sincere nman cya.. mlman mo nman dba? im sure this is not just an infatuation or an escape from my past for im sure in my heart that this is for real. This is real love. sasabog na puso ko kakatago eh...promise! punong puno na eh. and i want to tell him na... buti nlng may hiya pa ako at un ang pumipigil sken ngyon.. pero promise im super close to giving in... if you're going to ask me why i love him? i really dont knw tlga..i just felt it.. d ko expect na mangyre toh eh..it just happened.. and it happened real fast.. never felt falling this hard so fast eh... ilang weeks palng kme nagkikita nun eh...promise mern na agd... i mean, ramdam mo nman eh... tibok ng puso mo ang bilis...wla nman dhilan bkt... and i dont care if this feeling ends to nothing...
pag mahal mo cya..
sabihin mo..
kht alam mong wlang kapalit un.
ang mahalaga, nlaman nya.
at kung magalit cya...
sabihin mo:
Ang sabi ko mahal kita, hindi ko cnbeng mahalin mo rin ako...
pancin ko, ive been telling same stories over and over again..nwei, i dont care :P 4 days na kme d nagkikita...and i miss him so damn much..i just realized ung song na Ive fallen For You...i know now para knino tlga un... the msg surely is for kbramos tlga...
what is this im feeling?
i just cant explain... (i really cant explain honestly..)
when you're near...
im just not the same..
try to hide it.. (yes im trying!)
try not to show it.. (this is really hard...)
its crazy... (i agree...)
how could it be??
ive fallen for you...
finally my heart gave in... (thank God this is true!)
and ive fallen in love...
ive finally know how it feels..
so this is love..
when you said hello..
i look in your eyes..
suddenly, i felt good inside... (its not only good, its better, its best..hehe)
is this really happenin?
or am i just dreaming? (but this is real not a dream!)
i guess its true..
i cant believe.. (unbelievable tlga!)
that ive fallen for you..
finally my heart gave in..
and ive fallen in love..
ive finally know how it feels..
so this is love..
doesnt matter where i am..
thoughts of you still linger in my mind. (always....)
no matter what time of day..
ive really really fallen for you...
now ive fallen for you..
finally my heart gave in..
and ive fallen in love..
ive finally know how it feels..
so this is LOVE...
thank you Lord for giving me such a blessing.. i really can feel na youre always there for me.. and sobrang feel na feel ko na youre always answering my prayers..answering in a sense na whats best for me.. THANK YOU LORD! thank you po for everything.. I love you so much Lord..
after lunch...
out of my league...whats in this song that everytime i hear it i always feel something...its not because of who dedicates this song to me..its because of the beat...the rhythm of the song.. the message...coz i can say that the song is real beautiful tlga..it inspires me especially now that im in love.. doesnt matter to me that this is hans' song for me before...what matters is that everytime i hear this song my heart beats faster and it tells me that im so much in love right now..with whom? with kbramos....the start of the song kc is really beautiful tlga..cute ng pagkakatugtog eh..promise.
a sign that things didnt work out - il never ever talked about him in this blog... :(
why am i falling this fast?
thus, why am i falling for someone whom i dont know he's real intentions to me?
am i just a friend or more than that?
why am i still taking the risk?
why am i still not giving up?
maybe because i dont want to lose him...
i dont want him to go away from me..
i need him..
i care for him..
i love him.. so much..
he's my happiness..
he's the reason why im always looking forward for another day..
he's the sun that shines up on my sky.. the moon that brightens my night..
he's the song that always plays on my mind..he's the one who is in my dreams every night..
he's the reason why im being poetic right now.. i think...
he's my inspiration..
but i dont want to make the first move...
i still have my pride..
im afraid of getting hurt..
im afraid of what he might gonna say or react..
im afraid he'll say that im just a friend to him..
and im afraid of not knowing myself again after hearing that...
im afraid of being depressed again.. of being lonely.. of being alone..
im afraid of not trusting anyone again...
im afraid of losing myself again..
im afraid of hurting myself again.. physically...
im afraid of waking up another day thinking that i failed..
that i will never have him..even just as a friend again...
damn! im afraid of everything...so why make the move right?
i know its a good feeling to be in love but....
but then again... im just a friend... (i think..) :(
and i cant do anything about it..
maybe ill just love him quietly..
just let this love grow deeper inside my heart..
than destroy the friendship that has just started..
and accept what Life can only offer me...
i hope fate will give me a chance..
to shout to the world how much i love him..
maybe not now...
but also..maybe not ever...
but please give me just this moment to say this...
"im in love with you... so much in love...
and ill always be here for you no matter what.. even just as your friend...
whatever or whoever will make you happy, ill respect it because...
i love you so much....."
thus, why am i falling for someone whom i dont know he's real intentions to me?
am i just a friend or more than that?
why am i still taking the risk?
why am i still not giving up?
maybe because i dont want to lose him...
i dont want him to go away from me..
i need him..
i care for him..
i love him.. so much..
he's my happiness..
he's the reason why im always looking forward for another day..
he's the sun that shines up on my sky.. the moon that brightens my night..
he's the song that always plays on my mind..he's the one who is in my dreams every night..
he's the reason why im being poetic right now.. i think...
he's my inspiration..
but i dont want to make the first move...
i still have my pride..
im afraid of getting hurt..
im afraid of what he might gonna say or react..
im afraid he'll say that im just a friend to him..
and im afraid of not knowing myself again after hearing that...
im afraid of being depressed again.. of being lonely.. of being alone..
im afraid of not trusting anyone again...
im afraid of losing myself again..
im afraid of hurting myself again.. physically...
im afraid of waking up another day thinking that i failed..
that i will never have him..even just as a friend again...
damn! im afraid of everything...so why make the move right?
i know its a good feeling to be in love but....
but then again... im just a friend... (i think..) :(
and i cant do anything about it..
maybe ill just love him quietly..
just let this love grow deeper inside my heart..
than destroy the friendship that has just started..
and accept what Life can only offer me...
i hope fate will give me a chance..
to shout to the world how much i love him..
maybe not now...
but also..maybe not ever...
but please give me just this moment to say this...
"im in love with you... so much in love...
and ill always be here for you no matter what.. even just as your friend...
whatever or whoever will make you happy, ill respect it because...
i love you so much....."
Friday, June 02, 2006
wla magwa ofc...
here i am again... i gonna write another kadramahan sa buhay... drama princess nga eh..nwei, parang nwwlan na ko ng gaya.. bka cya din nawawalan na ng gana...huhuhuhu wag nman po sana...maddepressed na nman ako nito eh.. kainis kc eh! hay ewan tlga...nkakasawa eto nlng lge naiicp at sinusulat ko dto... sna maiba nman dba? ung msaya nman wid him..hehe..change topic...grbe katamad ngyon... magtxt at magtxt nlng gnwa ko today...bwahahaha ganyan tlga. punta cya baguio bukas... punta cyang malayo... kakalungkot nman..wish ko lng kasama ako..haha para sweet. hehe feeling ko bka ako lng mag enjoy nun.. pero tgal ko na din kc d pumupunta baguio..sobra! sweet at sarap pumunta dun pag ksma mo mahal mo...haaay sarap tlga! day dreaming ang loka...hehe. nwei, naicp ko lng tgal ko ng d nkakausap cna karleen at martin... may sama pa kya cya ng loob sken..sayang ang friendship... sana ok na kme.. i miss college na sobra...i miss my friends and clasmates... miss ko na mga gngwa sa school.. kht lge puyat or dme gngwang projects...ok lng masaya nman...miss ko na tambay caf.. miss ko na mag aral cyempre ksma mga blockmates ko dpat... saya saya lng. its as if i missed out half of my college life and i dont know why... i just missed everything about being a college student. especially nung mga first year plng kme.. mga wlang kamuwang muwang sa mundo.. haha inosente ika nga...watch movies twice or thrice a week..grbe gastos noh! haha..tas naalala ko pa...taba taba ko nun... tas ngustuhan pa ako ni rj..hehe bulag nga tlga cya!wla pa akong alm sa mga ligaw ligaw na yan dti eh..ung flowers na binigay nya...hala binigay ko k ate juliet at nilgay nya sa altar nla! for a good cause nman..dme plang dumaan na lalaki sa buhay ko nun...hala nagfeeling! hehe dumaan lng nman... nagpark sa parking lot ko..hehe.. and ang pinaka d ko malilimutan dun is c benedict.. nag over due sa pagpark sa parking lot ko but naging msaya nman ako nun... salamat salamat sa lhat tlga..naku sobrang nahihya pa nga rin ako sa knya ngyon eh... d ko alm bkt.. parang ang sama sama ko nun.. parang wla akong konsensya... i liked him pero d nya cngot ko...haha baliw! pero oks lng..past is past at naging happy nman din ako... hala naalala ko pla c ellard! hehe tinataguan ko ata cya dti...hahahaha kasama sama ko tlga... nhihiya lng tlga ako pag may mga gnong lumalapit... feeling ko d ko kyang ihandle.. kc nga d ko nman tlga kya... d ko alm anong iaact ko...nwei tgal na un...matatanda na tyo ngyon! isa pang hala! june na pla... my birthday month! grbe na toh! bilis bilis ng araw... hala mlamang manlilibre ako..ubos ubos na nman ang pera ko... gastos gastos ko na nga ngyon... hehe pero sana maging msaya bday ko... sana nman maging memorable cya...change topic uli...ahmm...isip isip...haha 1 hour and 15 mins nlng uwian na...countdown toh sobra! gusto ko na mag out eh knina pa actually...wla na nga ako gngwa eh... eto pla grbe na toh...feeling ko tumataba na nman ako... gusto kong maggym! grbe ayko na kumain...kataba taba ko na tlga...kainis kc sarap kumain eh.. ngyon na nga lng uli ako nagkaroon ng gana kumain eh...dti tlga wla..as in wla... isang subo busog na...tubig ok na...or itulog nlng.. lge nga ako pinapagalitan ni mama eh.. para lng kumain ako.. tpos minsan nahuhuli nya akong umiiyak... hiya ako nun eh..kc during that time, aykong maging msama impression nla mama k hans kc nkikita nilang parang pinapaiyak ako ni hans...hehe...past past...gnon maging depressed ang gaga... hahaha... d ko nga lng alam kong panu ako magiging depressed ngyon if ever may mangyre... cyempre ibang lalaki na toh eh.. hehe.. bka maging tingting nlng ako...hehe in a week or less kya kong pumayat agad pag depressed ako... mukha akong addict..joke! d noh! maganda parin cyempre..hay kbramos! wlalng... ano ba kcng gnwa mo at nagfall ako ng gnito sayo? ano bng gnwa mo? gnayuma mo ata ako...heheh joke! i dont even know bkt mahal na kita eh...it just happened. and it happened real fast tlga.. ganon nman pag love...kht anong icpin mong reason bkt...wla kang maicp.u just love the person and you dont know why...pero friends lng tyo dba? :( .... passenger seat music ko ngyon... alala ko bigla c budjie! hehe.. na nagtatago ata ngyon. 1 hour nlng uwian na...so mahaba haba pa tong blog ko...wla akong pakialm bkt ba! blog ko toh eh! pero wla na me maicp eh..wait lng............gumawa pla ko testi for him...hope d nman halata ung totoong feelings ko sa knya dun..hehe...sobrang pigil ung mga gusto kong sabihin dun...as in pigil na pigil tlga...hehe at sana nasend ni she..kainis kc d pwde friendster dto eh...kelangan ko ng paayos pc nman promise...miss ko na chat...at online all night long..haha...pagmoney na...buti pa c she, may laptop na...hehe sana ako din.. nainggit eh.. :P most suited song samen ni hans months ago..separated by usher...hahaha pinapakinggan ko kc ngyon eh... cause we're better off separated...totoo nman eh dba? were better off separated tlga...cause ive never been this happy ever since... as if ive been freed from prison after so many years... hala! umuulan na! kainis.... badtrip nman oo!!
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