why am i falling this fast?
thus, why am i falling for someone whom i dont know he's real intentions to me?
am i just a friend or more than that?
why am i still taking the risk?
why am i still not giving up?
maybe because i dont want to lose him...
i dont want him to go away from me..
i need him..
i care for him..
i love him.. so much..
he's my happiness..
he's the reason why im always looking forward for another day..
he's the sun that shines up on my sky.. the moon that brightens my night..
he's the song that always plays on my mind..he's the one who is in my dreams every night..
he's the reason why im being poetic right now.. i think...
he's my inspiration..

but i dont want to make the first move...
i still have my pride..
im afraid of getting hurt..
im afraid of what he might gonna say or react..
im afraid he'll say that im just a friend to him..
and im afraid of not knowing myself again after hearing that...
im afraid of being depressed again.. of being lonely.. of being alone..
im afraid of not trusting anyone again...
im afraid of losing myself again..
im afraid of hurting myself again.. physically...
im afraid of waking up another day thinking that i failed..
that i will never have him..even just as a friend again...
damn! im afraid of everything...so why make the move right?

i know its a good feeling to be in love but....
but then again... im just a friend... (i think..) :(
and i cant do anything about it..
maybe ill just love him quietly..
just let this love grow deeper inside my heart..
than destroy the friendship that has just started..
and accept what Life can only offer me...

i hope fate will give me a chance..
to shout to the world how much i love him..
maybe not now...
but also..maybe not ever...

but please give me just this moment to say this...
"im in love with you... so much in love...
and ill always be here for you no matter what.. even just as your friend...
whatever or whoever will make you happy, ill respect it because...
i love you so much....."